Memoir: Note to Self Note as a 9-Year-Old ChildHello Child of God,I know you are saying ‘What?’ Your Wisdom at age nine years, tells you to fasten your seatbelt – we are going for a ride. Two days before your 9th birthday Mama goes to her heavenly home. You will not understand words from grandma 'if your mother didn't have you later in life at age 38 yrs, she would still be alive today. What did that mean? How did I make my mother die? Mom didn't die in childbirth! A teacher words in grade school ‘sit down - you can’t read.’ I know the subject – I can’t pass a written exam. My grades were C-D-F’s. I started my road to alcoholism at 18 yrs. You will realize that you are trapped in Grandmother’s web with her nonexistent grieving process and anger with grandfather’s alcoholism. You will have a Learning Disability that no-one understands.